Year 1, Month 2, Day 26
It’s Valentine’s Day. (And tomorrow is Half Price Chocolate Day…whoo hoo!)
My second Valentine’s Day without a sweetheart. Yes, I do have a regular “fuck buddy” now, but Valentine’s Day isn’t about sex.
It’s about romance.
I’m not talking about expensive dinners, flowers, and chocolate (though I never turn them down). I can treat myself to those anytime I want.
Romance isn’t about grand gestures and extravagant presents. Romance is:
- Waking up to a cup of hot coffee served in your favorite mug without having to get out of bed.
- Listening to music you hate (and tolerating it) because your partner loves it.
- Always cleaning up the kitchen after a meal because your partner did the cooking.
- Holding hands…anytime…anywhere.
- Snuggling on the couch and watching a movie or TV show.
- Giving your partner a gift “just because.”
I could go on, but you get the idea.
It’s the everyday gestures which are so easy to take for granted that mean the most; not diamond jewelry or sexy lingerie.
So, unlike last year, I’m not sitting in my big comfy chair and crying all night while the man I love is spending it eating chicken wings and watching TV with his crazy ass fiancee. (Yeah, that’s how Peter spent his Valentine’s Day last year. How romantic is that?)
I’m spending it with a person I love. The cutest, funniest, kindest person I know.
I’m going to treat myself this evening to a wonderful meal, a bottle of wine, a decadent dessert and a chick flick (“Pride and Prejudice” anyone) and maybe a long, hot bubble bath.
In other words, I’m going on a date with myself.
I am a happier and more balanced person without Robert. I am happier without Peter because I’m not agonizing over NOT being with him. (Though I would take him back in a heartbeat if he asked.) I am happier without Troy because I’m not analyzing every text message and phone call.
One thing I have learned is you need to love yourself before you can love another. I’m well on the way to doing that.
Happy Valentine’s Day, Gentle Reader. May you have the love and romance you deserve!